What did you say? Who?

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That's been my response three times now within the last six weeks (twice in the last five days!)

Sudden death is shocking, especially to the family and those closest to the person. The shocking thing to me is two of these three were more comforting constants in my life. People I wasn't super close to, but I knew they were there, available, caring, praying but we just didn't spend a ton of time together. Their faithfulness and continuity living with constant resistance was something I admired. They knew and trusted The Lord to do His best in their lives and didn't say much to many about their struggles, and let people have their opinions. And God in his goodness and grace rewarded them with quick and peaceful home goings. 

What amazes me is how hard it is to wrap my mind around them being gone!  I just can't quite get ahold of the reality. Both ladies have been pillars in my world for more than 15 years. But quiet ones, standing in the background holding things together without much notice…

People don't always realize what a blessing and an encouragement they are to someone, just by being "there". Being in that place where we always expect them to be, doing what they've always done… it leaves a hole when there not there. 

Though I'll miss these two very, very much. I am so thankful to have known them, to have the opportunity to learn from their steadfast example, anticipate seeing them again, and hope to go like they did--quickly, before I know it's coming! 

The third person in this trio, is not such a happy tale. His death was shocking because he was my classmate from 2nd grade on. Certainly not friends. Though he did make a huge impression on my life, I was shocked and saddened by the news of his passing. And the story of what happened broke my heart.

That to me (though it may sound strange to you), is reason for rejoicing. Not in his passing, for nothing makes me sadder… but in my sorrow over his passing. You see, if I am truly as sad about that loss of life as I feel, that is my confirmation that I truly have forgiven him. For I can honestly tell you, there was a time I would have been thrilled by that news, and would have considered it what he deserved. I honestly do not feel that way today. Today, I am so sorry for his broken-hearted family, and my heart sinks at the thought of his eternal destination...




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